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Snapping my fingers off in frustration, inside
I am freaking out. Not on the outside, but on the inside, I'm slamming myself into walls and ripping my hair out. Why? Because there are nine days of school left and the teachers are giving us the most homework since EVER. There's no time to not do homework, either. For Advanced Algebra, we sometimes get two days to hand something in, so usually, I would wait until the last minute. I can't do that now. Every day when I go into my math class, we get like three more whole entire giant worksheets assigned. I'm guessing that this is because it's the end of the school year and we need as much practice before exams as possible, but this is just way too much stress on me! I like my afternoons FREE of school. It's getting too hard to finish all of my homework in study hall and before school.
Another reason why I am ripping my eyes out on the inside? Because the SATs are on Saturday. SATURDAY. I'm not particularly worried about the test. I probably should be, I haven't studied for it at all, but I'm more anxious about it interfering with my weekend. My priorities are so out of order that it's not even funny.
On top of all of this evil negative energy accumulating in all of this homework, I'm also a nervous wreck because of exams. I look back fondly on the times when I wouldn't even have to study for an exam. I'd just walk in and get a ninety on it. But that ended in like seventh grade. I am terrified of failing almost every exam I have to take this year. Physics, Advanced Algebra, History.... The Spanish exam is in in class exam and the class isn't even required, so even though I'm pretty certain I'm going to fail that, it doesn't really count. Except for looking bad on my report card. Then there's an oral literature exam. And I have to know like all of the stuff that we've read this year. And comment about a piece I draw out of a hat. For FIFTEEN MINUTES. Okay, I have to go tear apart my bedroom. Inside my head, of course.
May 31, 2005 at 01:28 PM
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i have totally been there. but think about it this way...
it's only nine days. sure it will be a long and painful nine days and you will probably go grey and bald and have a couple ulcers. but then you will be done will school for another 3 months. dude you have to have crappy weeks to truly enjoy non-crappy weeks. throw yourself into it and before you know it, school will be out.
oh man, I feel the same way. I react two ways when faced with stress such as this:
1.) Freak out and don't get ANY sleep until all my work is done. Then still feel paranoid like theres more to be done, & I get really angry and mean.
2.) Go into denial and let all of my work pile up. Simply ignore my responsibilities and chill on the computer.
Seeing as I've been on the computer for about 3 hours straight, I think you can guess which reaction I'm having.
blah!
i totally know how you feel man! liek when i smell bad and i need to bahte but i can not because i must do the homework. it is so hard for me to do all the homework. sometimes i cry because i have so much homework to do. i cry. i cry so much that my body hurts. i cry. i cry. i cry......
Oh man, the Oral Literature exam was so much fun. I studied like crazy times for it and had a blast. I also had Chuck, though, and that had something to do with it.
PS: Come over this weekend.