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I'm overchallenged!
I am completely terrified of anything having to do with school right now. I have an AP exam tomorrow that I'm pretty sure I'm going to fail. I hardly remember anything that we learned this school year, but I also can hardly answer any of the questions of the AP U.S History review book. I know that I don't need to pass this exam to pass the grade, but that's not really what I'm worried about. I'm not worried really about passing/failing the multiple choice section. I'm worried that when it comes to the THREE essays that I have to write during the exam, that I'm going to not know the answer to any of of them! I would hate to have a totally blank piece of paper to hand it. It would just be too embarrassing.
After this exam is over, I plan on being freaked out out of my head with being scared to death about my June exams. We had a practice exam for Advanced Algebra the other day. So. Hard. Really. I didn't remember anything from the beginning of the school year. And then there's physics. I'm really scared that I'm going to fail physics and have to take it over again next school year. A lot of seniors had to do that this school year. I don't want to take physics again!
Once exams are all over and done with, I plan going insane with the thought that in exactly one school year, I will be heading off to college. COLLEGE. I am so not ready for college. I am scared that I might not get into any of the colleges I want to go to or that we won't be able to afford any colleges that I want to go to. I checked the Pratt website and it said that design majors need to include three sketches drawn from life including a self portrait. I can't draw from life for beans! Maybe I'll become a photography major.... but is that what I really want? Is being a design major what I really want? THERE ARE TOO MANY THINGS!
And what if I FAIL THE GRADE? What if I fail my exams and have to take the grade over again? That would be embarrassing. I really don't know if I should have gone to this school. With all of its advanced classes and stuff. People are always telling me that I wouldn't be challenged enough at a less challenging school.... I think I would do better, though. I wish that I was in stupid, regular history instead of AP. I wish that I went to a school that doesn't teach Earth Science in the 8th grade so that I could take that instead of Physics. I wish I could just relax!
May 5, 2005 at 01:43 PM
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Oh, come on, Max. History is easy. Look! Just watch ANY Orlando Bloom movie and it will tell you about history. Lord of the Rings is about World War Two. Black Hawk Down is about a massacre in...Somalia, I think. Troy is about the Trojan war, which was actually about control of a canal. And the new thing that's coming out is about the war in Ira--the first Crusade.
Seriously though, exams SUCK. But don't worry, this is City Honors! They doctor test results to make us all look like perfect little angels! Heil Battaglia!
The ap history exam was quite hard, I'm sure I got a 1..maybe a 2?
I'm scared for college also, but at Pratt, and most art schools, your foundation year always requires drawing and painting..I believe Jill's worried about all that real life drawing stuff as well. But I'm sure you can do it!?
It isn't as hard as it seems if you really spend time on it.