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It might give me ideas.
Fox has way too many shows on TV. Or maybe it's because we don't have cable and our reception sucks and the only channel we get is Fox. I've been watching a lot of Fox. Last night, I watched both American Idol and House. The American Idol was too depressing. Not only did that woman who was all, "if I can't express myself with music, I'll probably DIE" get kicked off, but another person who was really good QUIT THE SHOW. I was like, ohmiHAWSH, why? WHY would you do that? I felt bad. Then I watched House. It was really good. It had a really cool opening credits song. I guess I'm not the kind of person who would like hospital shows, though. I mean, on the last episode, a woman died of RABIES. There was a time in my life where I thought I had rabies.
I think it was because I was worried that every time I turned my head, some rabid mouse was drooling on the food in the kitchen. I ate a pretzel that had wetness on it, and uh.... yeah, I thought I had rabies. I started freaking out and blaming any "symptoms" I had on the rabies. Like the constant stomach aches that I was getting (probably from anxiety). And I totally obsessed about it, too. I'd lose attention in class because I was thinking constantly about how I could be DYING of RABIES.
That wasn't the only time when I was obsessed about getting some horrible disease and dying, either. I was on the bus the other day, and Elizabeth and I were talking. For some reason, the conversation shifted towards my obsessive compulsive....ness. She told me how people were worried about my constant hand washing. Still. I mean, it's been like what, two years since I did that? And people are still talking about it. Maybe it's because I hardly ever talk in school.... so I'm just the little kid who..... washes his hands. A lot. I didn't know that people noticed that kind of thing, but apparently they do. When I was absent one literature class, supposedly the entire class discussed how I used to slosh hand sanitizer on my desks in all of my classes.
It's funny, because when that sort of thing is happening, people with obsessive compulsive disorder know that it's crazy.... or a least a crazy sort of thing to do, but their reason for doing it also seems perfectly logical at the exact same time. Like, why do I need to tap my elbows five times against the walls with the exact same pressure? Because if I don't, I WILL DIE. I'm not really a tapper, but uh.... that's an example. So, in conclusion— I don't know if I should watch hospital shows.
February 9, 2005 at 08:28 PM
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haha. well if it makes you feel any better, i always think of you as the really organized kid who loves martha stuart and went through a "lets light incense and read tarot cards and then play with beanie babies!" phase in 6th grade. but didn't we all?
It's too bad you don't have ABC. You could become obsessed with Lost, which isn't such a bad thing. Lost doesn't throw horrible medical problems at you, besides pregnancy and rashes, or singing. Not much, anyways. No, the only terrible things you get with Lost are murder, junkies, plane crashes, knife attacks, evil polar bears, crazy French people, reformed Iraqi soldiers, Texan con artists, evil Canadians, et cetera. You'd like it...although you would probably also become obsessed with the idea that the island is actually purgatory, like so many others. Much better than American Idol, I can tell you. And the guy from House is just mean.
I do get abc. :P I watched it last night, actually, because DOOCE was on abc world news! Huh, well, I guess I was exaggerating when I said that the only channel we get is fox. We get PBS and a fuzzy abc also.
Once I thought my little sister had rabbies. I remember crying because I didn't want her to start foaming and die! Yeah... I was strange and silly when I was nine.