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Highlighters and other deadly items.
I shouldn't have been so quick as to not add "be happy" to my New Years resolution list. Consider it added. I seem to be having post-holiday stress/anxiety/depression. It might be all the back to schoolness, it might be all of the end Christmasness, the back to reality after a break of only TEN DAYS.....ness.
The vacation being so short, it's surprising how much I forgot over it. It's as if my educational slate has been wiped clean. I go back to school to find a billion kagillion assignments assigned for homework and that I have absolutely no idea at all whatsoever what on earth is going on.
I basically was in outer space the whole of Physics class. I hardly can help it, though, what with the bad acoustics and evil lighting the classroom has. It's almost impossible to keep focused more than a second or two. Physics is a really bizarre class. Not only is the teacher a tad bit difficult to understand (Romanian accent), but the textbooks (BOTH of them) seem to have been written by nutters. The definitions in the back of the book aren't even complete sentences. I'm also a bit worried that I maybe should have taken next year, AFTER having completed Advanced Algebra. Some of the formulas and mathematical terms we are expected to know for physics we are JUST starting to learn in Advanced Algebra.
I blame some of my depression and anxiety on the fact that very many things make me depressed, anxious, or even nauseated. It's not a good sign when you find yourself sick to your stomach just from looking at highlighters in Office Max. I think it has something to do with me associating highlighters with those super academic "school is my life" super-students who like.... highlight stuff. The same nauseated, anxious feeling comes from such bizarre things as: cheap paperback books, bad lighting, Wal-Mart, chain restaurants, block parties, overly humorous or unhumorous teachers, and foreign language textbooks. I better stop writing now before I make myself too sick and O.D. on Pepto-Bismol.
January 3, 2005 at 08:09 PM
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I'm getting pretty depressed now, too, and, assuming my memory is up to par, which I'm pretty sure it's not, this isn't the first year it's happened. For me, it's the abrupt change of going back to school and all the stress that comes from it and seeing all of my friends again, which is really odd since I love my friends to death, but they really stress me out sometimes...
I feel as if I'm rambling. I think I'll go get some food...
oh man, i think EVERYONE is going crazy around this time. i've been so stressed i can't sleep! its madness.
haha i too have been close to O.D.ing on pepto bismol.